My ma het gesê dat jy moet huis toe gaan!

i"m staying again...

2006-07-19T09:45:00.000+02:00

As you get older, the kids seem to get older too and want to leave home and then you are stuck with the old bat and her nagging voice and you become selectively death and you cry yourself asleep, 'cause when the kids leave, that is when you start getting old.

But that isnt reality for me, even though i'm a stay-at-home dad, who are preparing a lovely dinner for his family. how the roles have changed and how life is different in these times of fake reality, comercialism, Jeffree Star. i think i'm devorcing my wife and marrying him! God, he is H-O-T!

Well, i think i'm doodling and jotting some long forgotten ideas down that dont really have any real reference!

Long live the obscure! Long live the obscene! Long live the obsessions!

Devil's Cartel

2006-05-18T18:37:00.000+02:00

You better listen up cause Devil's Cartel is going to rock your world and create competion for our friend LARK!

Louise Eksteen

She is the vocalist of the group and has the voice of an angel with a touch of naughtiness thrown into it! Check out her voice in my links section: Devil's Cartel.

Here is the masterminds behind Devil's Cartel: Ian Holden & Louise Eksteen. This is a recent publicity photoshoot they did...so no outdated things on my blog!

Enjoy!

I'm turning 26!

2006-05-12T13:05:00.000+02:00

well, well, well...another year gone by and i'm turning 26. i must say it has been fun being 25, but now i'm getting closer to 30 and i'm not regretting any moment of it!

Full Moon is on the 13^th of May in Scorpio

Sun in Taurus
Moon in Scorpio
Jupiter in Scorpio
Pluto in Sagittarius

Scorpio being in the element of Water is suggestive of depth and strength. With the full moon there it is a time to invert the focus towards oneself. It is a time of working with endings to facilitate the most powerful quality of this sign, regeneration.

To clear out, to cut, to die is necessary to be able to regenerate New Life. This process is taking place at all times. In our bodies we are constantly working with this cycle. Our skin and our cells are constantly regenerating. Our blood cells are regenerating allowing old cells to die in order to regenerate and build new cells; this is a way of keeping the cycle of Life, Death, Life. During this time where the Moon sets the tone for the coming month it is important to be aware of this cycle. We may experience very specific issues, which are coming to an end. It may be necessary to take the initiative to clear out around us, and within us. It is a preparation for inner retreat and quiet to travel a little deeper.

The process is to access and develop the necessary strength in order to come into our power. The energies of Scorpio activate regions of inhibition and imbalance so that everything that is good and evil are thrown to the surface (0f the aura). This forces us to explore our self-destructive patterns or fears. It is the sign to do with Vision and seeing, learning to get in touch with our inner deep sense of knowing.

The planet Jupiter is also currently in Scorpio, therefore an important time to listen for the inner voice and leaning how to Trust that Voice. The strengthening comes through the experience of Silence. Being silent, holding, listening and trying to see our problem is how and where we connect with the strength and attain the vision.

We are so easily tempted to spread it out. This can be dissipating and cause loss of the vision. So what ever the issue may be try to hold it within you to be able to connect with guidance and strength from within.

It is also an important time to look loss in the face; we can resist letting go and hold on, expending huge energy trying to keep something, where the life force is no longer there. Being in the silence of that place allows the ability to see deeper.

Jupiter’s presence is also exposing to us where there is no growth and newness in our lives. This is anti life. It is very important for our well being to have those qualities and opportunities available! It is the initial spark to experience joy and happiness. Sometimes we may be in a comfortable place, but marking time going nowhere. It is now life is pushing us to look and see where this is happening in our lives.

Scorpios influence brings about the drama of death and resurrection. In the descending involutionary phases it represents the mystic death of the soul, which merges into matter, while, in the ascending evolutionary cycle it represents the symbolic death of the personality and the resurrection of the soul, which rises triumphantly from the “tomb” of matter. This could mean confrontation on a material level! Are we bound to something, which is providing security, but on a soul level there is nothing. These may be the challenges to let go!

It is a powerful time in taking a step towards purpose and away from emptiness. It is not an easy time but a very deeply rewarding push towards a deeper meaningful level in our lives!

The purpose of the Tests and trials in Scorpio is to provide a ‘point of crisis’ and ‘ moments of reorientation.’ These tests concern the three aspects of the human being and there are three on each plane, forming nine tests.

On the Physical plane: Sex, comfort, and money

On the Astral plane: Fear, hate and ambition

On the Mental plane: Pride, separateness and cruelty

“These are symbolised by the 9-headed serpent of desire. To overcome them forces us to our knees and from that position of humility we can lift it above our head into the air” This is symbolic of the challenges we may be confronted with currently and the meaning behind the struggle.

The Tissue salt for Scorpio is Cali Sulph, which cleanses the blood and destroys dead worn out cells facilitating blood purification and regeneration of new cells.

2006-05-04T15:04:00.000+02:00

Moved again! It is the best place to live, EVER! And having my first get together tonight with butternut soup and games! How appropriate! Just ask if you'd like to know where my new place of residance is and i'msure i'll tell you...

3D hentai for all!

2006-04-21T10:00:00.000+02:00

2006-04-21T09:48:00.000+02:00

'Mouth of Me' - Lark
EP cover

Lark it the object of my musical effection of late! They are the hottest thing yet to come out of South Africa.

Their live act is brilliant and they have a stunning music video, which I hope will be released on DVD soon. Check them out! I have a link to their website and go listen to some of their songs' clips.

Irritation with a mild case of anger

2006-04-20T13:51:00.000+02:00

I'm the victim of my own flawed design...hehehe! How funny and ironic; seeing that we were created perfect, well...

I dont really do what I want and I dont really follow my own road that I should have gone on when I was in high school, but I've created this path and I'm walking it and trying to make a way back to where I was...a retracing of step, I think?

'Light another cigarette'

Thank god for music!

I really need new glasses!

An ode to annerie's dad!

2006-04-11T11:57:00.000+02:00

The most recent of all my pictures...how I feel and look and trying to impress someone, which I can only have by intense flirting...hehehe...

On a more serious note...why is one always a pillar of strength for other people, but you can never be that for yourself! objectiveness...hmmm...also something reseved for someone else! Last night I went to a friend's house for a glass of wine; had dinner there aswell; some of them starting 'smoking' and brought out the paper and water colours and started painting and talking a whole lot of shit!
When you are one of the sober people there it gets very funny at a stage see the 'smokers' all giggling and shit! we started reading some alternative afrikaans poetry and after a while we started making up our own poems, untill it got too much for one of my friends and she started crying. Today is the day of her dad's passing, 11 April.

He was a good man, even though I only met him twice. At that stage I wasnt very popular with her folks, cause i dated there nephew that was staying with them and they werent to happy about that, but that is old news and old emotion under a long ago burned bridge. My friend talks of such high regard of her dad and what he would have wanted for her and how everything would be different if he was still with us all. Believe me they had their fights and she also remembers that, but how the fights were good, in the sense of perception shifts!

To get to my point that I made in the beginnig is that when she started crying, one goes into that good advice mode and just give out these pearls of wisdom that should be written down and published for all to see and use! Then irony comes into play: You, yourself dont follow your own advice or comments made. I think it is the human condition and it is funny sometimes!

This i my ode to her father. Whome I respect for his position and love of his daughter.

just so you know who you talking too...

2006-04-10T13:11:00.000+02:00

This is I.

if thinking is going to hurt...sign me up!

2006-04-10T12:20:00.000+02:00

As i'm sitting here waiting for a couple of files to render out and listening to Air's 10 000 Hertz & Moon Safari...i've come to the conclusion that i'm a just thinking to much about things and not moving to grab the opportunities it bring! I miss certain people in my life. I miss certain material things in my life. I miss spirituality and yet i'm not sad about that, just a little irritated by my behaviour!

I miss Marilu and i have 3 months to be more in her presence before she goes to Japan. (Op die oomblik wil ek nou saam met jou wees, sweef en "la femme d'argent" in die agtergrond laat speel. Jy weet dat ek baie bly is jy het die kans gekry het om die reis te he en dat al my beste emosie saam met jou altyd beweeg, maar ek kan nie lieg en se dat my hart nie skeur nie! PS hierdie is die mooiste foto wat ek nog ooit van jou gesien het!)

Then, an ex love, Colin. Good Lord, what a guy! Still able to make my jaw drop everytime his presence is near me. Saw him on Thursday at a Lark concert (www.lark.co.za). Was a trick to get him there, but in the end it turned out that both our body language was still SO attuned to each other that we basically ignored everybody that started to speak to us. I might see him over this Easter weekend. I'm excited, but scared and love those feelings!

i've said enough now...i'll think more, i think...hehhehe!

i have seen the light and it blinded me...

2006-04-06T10:26:00.000+02:00

well, this is my debut post and it is quite exciting still trying to figure out everything and trying to figure out what my discussions are going to be about, but we'll see...